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(no subject) [Apr. 12th, 2006|05:31 pm]
So the past week and a half or so I was super sick.
I went home last weekend and had a good time despite people totally ditching plans.
But that is so likely now.
I've skipped one class everyday this week.
And I've slept way too much.
My appetite has been close to nothing.
And I've eaten foods that don't require cooking.
Peanut butter and jelly and cereal. That's about it.
I've had no energy and I hate it.
Hopefully my nose will stop running and I can head back to the gym next week.

Talks with Brucey are the best.
And I feel special to know that he cared when we were dating.
Not sure of what that means but he told me he doesn't care anymore.
I've known he thinks differently after watching every failed relationship over the past 9 months.
I wish that was different. I just want him happy.
I'm glad to still be the home g to turn to.

And I may be going home tonight. Until Sunday.
But it might have to be tomorrow by 12:30.
Either way. It will be awesome.
Because I will be home.
I'm having a dance party. And you're all invited.
It will probably be held in my car.
So holla at ya girllllllll!

People should come back to Plymouth.
People as in plural of person.
As in you two.

I'm seeing Brand New this Friday.
But I will want to see them again July 25 in Boston.
Does anyone want to go?
I'm thinking of buying two tickets and just dragging someone there.
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(no subject) [Apr. 10th, 2006|11:31 pm]
[Current Location |Bristol]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]
[Current Music |HA - Lying Through Your Teeth]

Weekend was really good.
Feels Like July show was pretty good.
But I felt really old.
Saw a lot of people I wanted too.
Was super sick too.
Met new girlfriends.
Missed Head Automatica.
Saw Coheed.
Arena was huge. Didn't like it.
Didn't go back to school.
Slept in my bed and it was amazing.
Had chats with people.
And skipped classes to sleep.

Basically I'm sick.
I'd make a real update but I would rather sleep.
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(no subject) [Apr. 7th, 2006|05:08 pm]
[Current Location |HOME!!!!!!!]
[Current Mood |chipperchipper]

I'm seeing Brand New at Salve in two weeks.
And I'm seeing Feels Like July tonight.
And so should you.
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Awake from 12 to 2 in the am? [Apr. 4th, 2006|10:53 pm]
Then listen to my radio show with Joshua.

Don't Get Emo
12 to 2am
Click on Listen Live
or Channel 5 if you are at RWU.

I'm super sick.
And my head is on fire.
It will be a struggle to stay awake.
But I'm playing good music.
So listen if you'd like.


ps. real update when my brain works.
and i actually make it to classes.
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Pretty Sweet Weekend [Apr. 2nd, 2006|10:04 pm]
[Current Location |escuelaaaa]
[Current Mood |calmcalm]
[Current Music |Sage Francis - Bridle]

This weekend was pretty much what I needed.
TREOS show was good. Too many people. Like 15 people from RWU were there and I saw a bunch from Plymouth.
Hopefully the middle east show will have less kiddies. I barely had room to dance.
Alex was all better though.

Saturday I saw Brucey in the am and his new coche and heard about his good times.
Then I ran around everywhere.
Got Cyn and we went to BJ's. I had to get my membership which took forever.
I got a box of Famous Amos cookies, giant drinks, and gas and then we had to get to the movie.
Ice Age 2 was the freakin' cutest thing ever.
I laughed a ton. Because I love John Leguizamo.
He is amazing at everything he does.
Got a cute outfit for the nice weather. Even though I wanted to buy so much more.
Got patches for my pants. And then had to rush back to manomet.
Made my pants look cute/covered up huge wholes in the back pockets with my mommy.
I had this whole freak out and now I have no idea what I'm gonna do for college.
I don't think I can do music business because I have such little knowledge of music right now.
I would be so behind if I went to school for it. I should have started earlier with everything.
So I turned to Brucey to listen to all my drama. And I didn't even cry on him.
He told me I should have taken a year off. I would have appreciated this input a year ago.
He droppped off all his friends and spent the night with me.
We joked around. Reminisced. Used baby b. Fucked with each others head. Introduced Brucey to Dane Cook. Lots of Laughs. He woke up gma so I could say hi.
Watched movies on the couch with me until 1 when he passed out.
I can always count on him to listen to me.

I slept sooooo late today. And it was awesome.
Saw Amanda Marie and Mark for a wee bit. Visited Cyn at work.
Said adios later on.
Got to school and went to the Aloha concert. I got there right before they started.
I looked for people from school and was so shocked to see Ms. Maddie Patch! I was so happy to see her. She always makes me smile. She came all the way from Plyouth to see Aloha which is awesome.
They guys were really neat. Hung out with Christina for a bit.
The rest of the day I have done basically nothing.
But I like that.
I have some work that actually needs to get done and a test so I should get that done then back to bed.

I cannot wait for this weekend!!!
Concerts lyke whoaaaaaa.
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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2006|03:58 pm]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |Styles P, Meth, Red - I Get High remix]

So this week has flown by.
And I'm so glad.
I went to the gym every single day and did 3-5 miles each day.
Which made me feel awesome.
I became addidcted to peanut butter and jelly.
And started eating wheat bread.

Tonight is motherfuckin' TREOS, yo.
Alex fell down the stairs and is totally sick.
But because the dudes are awesome they are still doing the show.
And it's only $10.
I wish it wasn't at Lupos though.
I hate it there. The Living Room is the place to be.

Then I go home.
Ice Age 2 on Saturday. I cannot wait.
I have to come back early on Sunday because like 5 people from the radio station told me I had to go to the concert they are putting on. I actually don't think it would be that bad. I just don't want to come back. Ever.

There are a lot of things I have been thinking about.
But once again I'm choosing not to go off on them in lj.
Maybe later though.

You are totally rad if you have done shrooms.
Fix your life.
You've fucked up just about everything. Including our friendship.
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Didn't I blow your mind this time.... [Mar. 29th, 2006|11:59 pm]
[Current Mood |jubilantpretty sweet]
[Current Music |Eminem - Say Goodbye To Hollywood]

....Didn't I?

Damn, does anyone remember when I was totally in love with Eminem?
He has changed so much. It is rediculous.
I cant believe I never saw him in concert either.
He would probably be awful now.

I'm happy with the way life is right now.

Even though I've almost lost one of my best friends.

And I never realized how much shit Bruce and I have gone through.
He's the one who has been there when no one else had been.
He's the shoulder I would cry on.
And helped me with things that only he could fix.
And today I know he would be there for me just the same amount.
I honestly love him and always will. bff224yo.

I can't believe that Dan has only been gone two weeks.
It seems like two months.
I miss him like whoa.

48 more days 'til I'm back where I belong.
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(no subject) [Mar. 28th, 2006|01:21 am]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]

I don't like when people are in love with being in love.
When it comes to a point where it changes a person so much.
Like the old person is totally gone and you feel you're losing the new person they've become as well.
It just sucks.

Other than that I'm feeling awesome about things.
TREOS show friday.
Ice Age 2 sometime this weekend.
I'm trying to get to the gym everyday now which has been working out good.
And I haven't done any real work in the past 4 days.
And it was beautiful out today and is only supposed to get warmer.
And it's happy to see people happy.
Especially those who haven't been in so long.
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Roger Williams University has been such a lame time. [Mar. 27th, 2006|03:02 pm]
So I decided I need to rant about this school.
If you don't want to hear it, stop reading.

Basically I came to this school knowing that it had a beautiful campus, a somewhat good business program, and a good radio station from what I had seen.

After staying here for the past 7 months, I feel like I have gotten dumber.
I learned more in high school and definitely was a lot more challenged.
I can leave everything off until an hour before class and still get a good grade on things.
I don't need to read anything to pass the classes either.
They offer a lot of different classes but don't leave enough room for people to take the classes.
There were very few music classes and only held about 20 slots so when I wanted to take one there was no way I could get into it.
In my math class this semester, I learned more from a freshman in a span of 2 hours than I did from that teacher the whole semester.
I feel so unmotivated to try to do anything because I know I don't need to try hard to get things done.
It is all a joke and I think once I transfer classes will be a lot harder.

The kids here for the most part are not my kind of people.
Yeah, I guess I shouldn't stereotype on how most of them are stuck up rich kids but when it comes down to it they are.
Most kids have their mommy pay for their education and I see so many people just throw away that money and not do shit in class.
The only thing that people like to do is get trashed on the weekends. I mean I like to drink every once in awhile but it is not my idea of fun all the time. I have found very few people who I can have an actual conversation with that doesn't have to do with music, drinking, or some kind of drug. I have found my group of friends who I will miss, but for the most part it won't be too hard to leave behind these people.

The dorms here are the worst.
Or maybe just mine.
I mean we pay so much money. Don't get the best education. And live in a crappy dorm.
I'm shoved in a two person room with two other people.
Everything is falling apart.
If anything breaks, we are responsible to pay for it throughout the entire dorm.
That means all the drunk assholes who have broken the front door like 10 times this year gets added onto my bill.
Alcohol free dorm = the place with the most alcohol = loud obnoxious kids.
We have basically no security either.
I mean I go to BSC and everything is so much nicer. And it's a state school.

So basically the only good things I have gotten out of this school are:
Experience with the radio station. Which I do love.
Use of the gym. Which helped me lose a buttload of weight.
Walks down to the beach. Which I can see at home.
2 good business classes.
And the nicest dining hall staff a college kid could ask for.

I also was not myself at all here.
I was so shy and didn't really go out of my way to meet people.
I felt that most people weren't worth my time.
I would go home and be so freakin' happy.
Then come back here to basically nothing.

I mean yeah I choose to come here so it's all my fault so I can't really complain.
I just really wish I took a year off like I had planned.
I could have actually researched majors and found music business and gone to a school that would benefit me this fall.
Now I'm so behind that I will most likely be a freshman all over again because most credits probably won't transfer.
I really feel I wasted so much money. Both my parents and I are so far in debt already.
I'm just happy I had the opportunity to go to school at all.
It was all a learning experience.

But I guess it comes to that whole everything happens for a reason which I have learned to apply to my life over the past 4 years like whoa.
And I'm done thinking about boys.
Or at least I can say that.
I mean I miss that feeling of falling in love.
Not being in love.
The whole butterflies and smiles galore that you get.
And I somewhat had those feelings but they have all disappeared because life doesn't go how I want it to.
I don't want to hope for anything because I have been disappointed way too much.
I miss people like whoa though.
But I'm just going to see them as friends.
I have way too many other things to worry about this summer.
My goals are to make as much money as possible, learn the bass more so that I can pass an auditon for school, get healthier/lose more weight, and just have a good time with my friends this summer.
I know that last summer sucked. And it was not as fun as it could have been. But this one will be different.
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(no subject) [Mar. 27th, 2006|12:49 am]
So I feel like I wasted $30,000 at this school.
This school is basically 100% not what I thought it would be.
But I kinda already went on a rant about that earlier.

Life has been really weird lately.
I can't find a word to describe it.

You know when people ask you: "What is one thing you would change about yourself?"
I never know what to say.
But I really wish I could stop overthinking everything.

And I've realized that some people have changed.
And it's kinda sucky.

Summer should come now.
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