Riding the outer ring of your own private saturn...

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 03:09:39 GMT

http://www.rhymesayers.com/radio/audio/04_Shoulda_Known_clean.mp3

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 17:27:42 GMT

Now that I have actually managed to fix my computer/connect it to the internet I might actually update this on a regular basis.
In the past week I have had two of my friends of the past try to communicate with me and somewhat resolve things.
One was a person I thought was my best friend who proceeded to pick fights with me just a week after my brother died. I couldn't take it anymore and told her I didn't want to be her friend anymore. She proceeded to throw 3 of my shoes away. Yes 3, stating that if someone is mad at her she won't just sit there. Great way to resolve things if I say so myself. Her mom ended up paying me for one pair and that was my last contact. I ended up being best friends with the kid who lives across the street with her. And pretty much 5 years later I get sent a myspace message saying it would be nice to talk again. I really don't think that's possible. I mean I've never meant anyone so incredibly crazy with lying and so awesome as being the most immature person I've ever met.
The other person I stopped talking to about amonth ago because I could not take being the one sided person in a friendship. Having someone completely try and shut you out of their life after all the crap you've taken from their family and how you have been there for everything when they were never there for when you needed them. They turned into a drunk mother who pretty much needs to take care of themselves before I start talking to them again. She went to my house again to talk to me and found out I moved and called me. Still not ready to talk due to her family pretty much. Letters may work with this and hanging out with just the two of us may work but it never happens like that. After being shunned from a baby shower with Cynthia the supposed godmother doesn't exactly make me quick to talk.
The funny thing is I was friends with both of them at the same time. And they both turned against me at one time. Then the other one came forward and told me about what the other one was doing. The point is it took awhile. All this bullshit was fed in her mind and she turned against me with someone I never thought she would ever be friends with. And it took time to come to me and tell me when it shouldn't have.
It's just funny how things work out. So many people want to be friends when it's convenient for them. I'm done with that. It's always bothered me but I learned I can't have those people in my life. Friendship is a two way road. Sometimes one person makes more effort but it should equal itself out. I now have the people I call my friends closest to me. They know who they are and I won't settle for less. People change, some for the better, some for the worse. In the end you know who is good for you. Who is going to make you smile when you need it and who you'll visit at 3am cause they just need to talk. And that's all you need.

The past month

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 02:13:08 GMT

It seems that I never have time to do anything anymore.
Let alone update this. But I think I just need to find it/stop thinking so much.

School has been going pretty good.
I ended up getting screwed out of that honors class but every other class is great.
My whole grade relies pretty much completely on my midterm and final...in every class.
Which is nice but scary. I love Music theory. And having my own personal tutor every night after work.

Around my brothers bday everything caught up with me.
The fact he has been gone for 5 years, school, working two jobs, and so much more drama I don't even care to right. And I was an emotional mess. And people say offensive things to me and I just shrug it off cause honestly nothing gets to me. But I got real pissed at my two best friends. I mean they were mean but I overreacted and it's all cool now.

Saw Atmosphere and Portugal. Atmosphere was in Provi and I saw Joe from school! That was so odd but so good at the same time. I hate people are still there and are miserable. Join the rest of us and go to a better school. Drunk bitches make me not like Lupos. Portugal. The Man was in Cambridge. We made a day out of it and hung out at Umass on the last beautiful day then went down to Fanuel Hall and right by the back bay/North End aquarium area. And then to the lovely Antonios before the show. Best food ever. And then the show was definitely a good time. Interesting time in the city. I wish they played longer but hey. They'll be here in like two weeks again.

The past two weeks have been very hard.
I lost a friend, a third roommate, and the craziest kid I know.
Peter S. Confalone Jr.
Going to Roger Williams was never an awesome experience, but it also was not a horrible one.
Petey is one person who made it better.
Not only was Amber in love with him, he also was a great guy to just talk to.
I will never meet anyone who has gone through so much and has so many crazy stories.
Who else would live on the streets and then with monks and end up at RWU with a 1490 SAT score.
And such a goofball. Always made me laugh when things weren't on the up and up. And those hugs. He struggled through so much and things only seemed better for him. I will miss him. And I'll never forget.

Two days after the funeral, I got sick. My mother got bronchitis and it only took a few days for everyone in the house to get sick.

Amanda is pretty much insane. She had her child who was put in the ICU because it could not breathe on his own. Having a child an all, two days later she leaves him there goes home, and proceeds to get shitfaced drunk because you know "she had to wait 9 months" while the condition of her child is not good. Then like four days later, comes to my house pretty much right after I found out about Pete and my mom found out she had bronchitis at 1245. Wakes up everyone and I pretty much told her to get the fuck out of my room and she goes crying to Cynthia about how Mark is mad that she got drunk. Well you think. You are a mother now act like one. This pretty much decided that this friendship has to come to and end and now is an awesome time. I mean I want to show compassion, but yet again everyone around her goes unnoticed because only she has problems.

Cynthia also moved in during this entire time right at the end of September. So that has been an interesting change. It is so weird living with someone. I mean I know it is going to be just us in 3 months so I guess I can figure things out now. Sometimes I just want to be alone though. And lately it is a lot now. But things will work out.

And I can't forget about the dramaticness at work. I'll just leave it at that. It needs to quit now. For everyone's well being.

All I want to do. Is be wayyyyyyyyy caught up and school and see my lovely Ms. Fontaine in the North end. thanks.

Who's that dude sleeping with ya girlfriend

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 04:33:21 GMT

I haven't updated this in over 7 months.
Life is pretty fucking grand right now.
I've met new people. Stopped talking to others who were no longer worth my time.
I have new best friends. I had an amazing summer. School started up again today.
Classes are way harder. New job. No boys whatsoever only my two best buddies.
I went to New York. I saw Rage Against the Machine...after passing out.
I went to my favorite place in the entire country to end my summer.
Not everything happened how it was planned but I can say one thing, I'm a happy laday.
So yeah. pretty much nothing could bring me down.
I'll catch up on the last few months tomorrow.

Schooooool

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 00:47:09 GMT

Umass is pretty much awesome.
I like all my classes except one but I love all the teachers so it's alright.
Intro to Enthromusicology. Teacher is an enthromusicologist and that class is sweet. We basically examine different music from different cultures. I get to compose a song for homework.
Financial Accounting is pretty lame right now. It's not a bad class but it was like the class I took Junior year in high school. Teacher is pretty funny.
Intro to Computer Management. This is basically the class I took at RWU that I didn't get any credit for plus Access. Kinda lame but the teacher is nice. He introduced himself today. I also made my first friend in that class. I did basically nothing in class because of him. His name is Mike and he is beautiful. And smart. And knows Plymouth. And loves music. So I'm pretty pumped.
Intro to Archaeology. Teacher is an archaeologist and her story behind it is sweet. Seems cool. My dad wanted to do it when he was in college but never got the chance. So I figured I would see whats up with that. Especially since my other class got cancelled so I re-registerd for it.

Other than classes everything is awesome. I get to school really early. Get a parking place right up front. Got all my books. Driving in is actually quite fun. And it takes about an hour to get there and there is basically no traffic. Everything is rediculously easy to get to. I love the fucking diversity there. It is so nice to not see all white people. I know that sounds lame but RWU killed me with that. Everyone was the same. So many different people from so many different places. I'm way excited. And there's tons of asian men so that's a way plus. I also found out they have a radio station and they are looking for tutors so hopefully I can pick up some more cash somehow.

People are lamer than ever but what are you going to do. I already gave up and now is my time to escape from it all. All the drama and lame-o stuff. Once people stop acting like crackheads, I might feel different.

And I suck at dealing with stuff. So I won't. Once again.
Acting like nothing happened sounds like a cool idea.

Last day!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 00:11:21 GMT

Sometimes I really feel like I can never do anything right.
No matter how good something is for me, somehow it gets messed up.

Cancelling a class 6 days before it starts is lame.
Especially when you notify a student through school email that they never check and then freak outs happen when only 3 classes appear on a schedule.

I go back to school tomorrow.
Heck yeah. Seriously.
It's been since May. I feel dumb. I feel the need to gain more knowledge.
I feel the need to get the fuck away from Plymouth righhhhhhhhht now.

People are attempting to talk to me who I thought would never come back into my life.
Others are around me so much to the point that all I want to do is not talk to them again.
Especially when they don't let you move on. And get jealous and angry when you hang out with a boy. Any boy. Let alone one you know will be nothing more than a friend. Grow up.

Other than that I've been hanging out with cool kids.
I've been seeing dear Ronaldo a lot more lately. I missed that kiddo. And heck yes for no national guard. No more of my friends need to go into the army. No me gusta el guerra.
I think somebody has got a crush on me. He's wanted to hang out with me on the regular and I have and he offers to do anything and everything with me and pay for it all and listens to all my crap. Work makes things complicated.

I'm done with drama and done with worries.
Live your life. Love what you do. loveeeeeeeeeeeelifeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sweet life

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 02:14:51 GMT

Lifes been pretty good.
I can't complain.

I don't work more than 15 hours a week.
I spend a ton of time at home/driving people around.

I've come to the conclusion that seeing others happy makes me happy.
Which is not so good but I love putting a smile on peoples faces.

Last week two people told me they loved me.
One like a sister.
The other gives me hugs daily and tells me I look nice.
Both are just my friends and I adore them for telling me this.
It's good to know that people care about you as much as you care about them.

Other people who I thought would never enter my life again have shown up.
Acting completely oblivious to the fact that I hate them. Saying hello and echoing my friend. I expect an answer from him not you. Stop trying to talk to me. Go in the army or where ever already.

And skewl starts in 10 days.
Pretty pumped.
Went to the doctors and they think my whole passing out thing has to do with my heart.
So no more green stuff after this month.

Boys are just plain silly.
All of them.
Stop being jealous about girls hanging out with other boys who are not you.
It makes you sound like a woman.

Hanging out with kids from work was a smart move.
Meeting new people is awesome.
Especially when they are so fantastically nice and listen to sweet music and invite me to things such as sandwich night.

Someone want to give me $40 so I can see Incubus? Thank you greatly.

ps.
Soon he/she will be mine.

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 14:16:56 GMT

2+ hour life chats with super sweet kids are priceless.
Birthday celebrations with the one person who I have been friends with constantly since the age of 2 are priceless.
Jealous boiz are priceless.
Yesterday was pretty much priceless.
Kinda like that Copeland song.

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 20:29:25 GMT

It seems every time I go to write in this, everything is going good.
But by the time I actually get around to it, the situation takes a 360 and turns to shit.

I thought things would be easy.
For the past month I just let things happen. Going with it. I knew I needed to end things but let it continue which just made things that much worse. Maybe if he hadn't said he wanted to work things out, I wouldn't have questioned it. It's funny how I've never thought about saying that to him because it is just wayyyyyyyyy too soon. So when I didn't have an answer soon enough, another girl was in the back of his head and now is the only thing there it seems.
In a way I am sad. But I know he is not what I need. Not what I deserve. And I know I'll find better. I think I just wanted someone. And he's always that someone who is always there. And always will be.
The funny thing is his mom considers me to already be part of the family. She got me the coolest turtle bracelet and I feel like they are a second family to me at times. No matter what happens they'll be there.

On another note, I can finally say it feels like Christmas. When I was in church last night we had a normal mass but they turned down the lights when they played Silent Night and it was so nice. I was talking and laughing with my mom and it was just nice. And then I realized that one other person was not there who was there all those years. Who would sit with me through mass and want to leave just as much as I did. I love the holidays but no I can't appreciate them as much as others. Not like I used to. Not when my brother isn't there with us. But I do appreciate being with everyone else. My family and my friends. They've been there for me more than I know and all I want is to spend time with them.

Next month I leave for school. And with commuting, school work, and work, I came to the conclusion I'll have just about no time to see people. So please don't hate me. Just know it will be tough and I want to make the money I spend on school worth it so I'm shooting for a 4.0 to make up for the dumb shit I did at rwu. It will a change. And hopefully I haven't lost all my brain cells. But we'll see what happens. I can't wait to live there though. I think it's just what I need.

Basically I've just been trying to hang out with my favorite kids in the world. So consider yourself lucky if you've seen me. I've been sick the past two weeks but I'm almost better just a cold now.

This week is nuts.
Tonight I have to see Kristina and then be at Bruceys to celebrate his bday at midnight.
Up at 7:30 for work til 4. Then maybe off to In the Pink for Brucey's tattoo.
Up at 7:30 again and work til 3. Then off to Providence for Abigails birthday extravaganza.
Come back the next day then Glassjaw.
Day off then the next day work and gdons suprise partay.
Then new years. Nuts.
Orientation the 9th. Mass General the 12th. School the 28th? omg

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 15:46:04 GMT

This morning I had a dream that I died at a young age.
I was in college but after I apparently died people could still see me.
But only certain people.
I tried to see how exactly I died but the phone rang and I woke up.
I blame this dream on seein the one person who said they were sending people to kill me with a knife and running away from them at the mall.
Seriously, who am I kidding. I could never hurt anyone. Even if I wanted to.
But it would be sweet to be able to talk to people after I die.
This entry was pointless except for the fact that I never remember my dreams.
Oh yeah and I saw some band not once but twice in my dream. And I can't remember that. And it kills me.

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 06:13:19 GMT

It's funny how cute notes on top of folded clothes can all disappear in less than a day.
Figuring out what you want. And telling someone. Is not easy, but completely necessary.
Lifes good. Sparing the details is even better.

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 06:44:06 GMT

Cuddle buddies are pretty sweet.
Cute high school boys who get giddy over ex-coworkers are funny and named Gordon.
I might sell my bass to him tomorrow.
I worked the past two days and tomorrow everyone I know has the day off and I told about 10 people I would see them.
And I bought a radio today and I'm getting it installed tomorrow.
I'm so fucking pumped!
It's a JVC and it's ipod ready. What does that mean exactly? It means it has it outlet in the back where if you install the cable, you plug your ipod into it and it charges it and you keep it in the glove compartment and you can use your ipod like it was the cd player. The playlists and artists and everything show up on the radio. Some hitech shit for me. There goes $200. Which is exactly $50 than what I paid to get my crappy old stereo installed. and that one broke. But the ipod thing will be so worth it.
And I'm going to college next month.
I have orientation the 9th so hopefully I can get my schedule all set.
Excited to be learning again. Actually, heck yes!
I just have this feeling I'm gonna be super broke.
Elliptical for Christmas! Best present ever.

keeping things short

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 05:25:40 GMT

Life has been sweet.

Bruce broke up with Alicia so now I actually get to see my best friend almost daily.
Went to Barrett's on Friday the 13th and it was worth the 3 hour wait.
But I do still hate clowns.
Even after being picked up and carried next to one of them.
Salem was a nice adventure but could have been better.
My highlight was finding the beautiful tapestry that is now on my ceiling.
And the amazing italian food we had after in Lynnfield.
Not working so much has been nice.
It's good to know people miss you back when you miss them.
Especially when it is way more than you thought.
I can't wait for Saturday.
Good times at Amanda's halloween/birthday party.
I have to decide which Ninja turtle I'm gonna be.
Bruce is already splinter.
But I know a rat who would fit the part perfectly though.
Stupid drama I won't bother mentioning.

I can't really complain.

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 22:09:27 GMT

In the past two weeks I have worked 106 hours.
So basically if I saw you, be considered amazing awesome and lucky.
The only time I had off I was either sleeping or running around town.

On the second I saw the Red Hot Chili Peppers with the Mars Volta.
We had the second to last row at the fleet center.
The sound was crappy but I had an awesome time.
And they didn't play Soul To Squeeze but closed with Give it Away so I was happy.
And this old lady next to me loved me because of my slippers.

Ronnie is officially going into the army.
Infantry airborne to be exact.
And he's going with Shane who I just met like a week ago.
I can't believe it. I don't want them to leave.
I hate when I just get to know people then they leave for whatever reason and especially when it's the army.
Because who knows when I'll see them again.
But I'm happy since it is what they want and I'm proud they have made it this far.
And those bitches better write.

Other than that I can't wait for this month.
Amanda's bday is tuesday.
This Friday the 13th we're going to Barrett's haunted house.
The 21st amanda is having her bday party when her parents are gone.
The 28th to the 29th going to Six Flags with The gascoynes.
Then another halloween party at Amanda's.
Then in November I leave PMIC.
Then loveeeeeeeee the winter holidays.
Then starting at Umass Boston.
Ahhhh!!!
I'm so pumped.

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 04:57:43 GMT

Today was super.
Even though nothing incredibly super happened.

I worked both jobs today.
Strawberries was a good time.
I ate a salad.
I found someone who likes the same music as me.
And I work with him!
This kid Gordon seems like he's pretty awesome.
We talked about a ton of music and I might go to see Broken Social Scene with him.
I bought Grandma's boy. And for $10. Yes discount.
Went and found Brucey fishing.
Discussed situations.
Said hello to Mr. Boynton
Hopefully seeing Brucey again someday.
If people in situations weren't so lame.
Went to peacefuls.
Cleaned an overflowing toilet and unclogged it.
Cleaned two freezers.
Wanted hot apple sundae.
No good.
Chatted with Shane and found out the real story.
Behind life.

Niptuck is not so cool as last season.
I need to sleep.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 00:23:20 GMT

So it has been decided that Bruce owns me.
Well at least a piece of me.
My wrist to be exact.
When I die, he wants the skin of my wrist where my tattoo is cut off and given to him.
He plans to stretch it and dry it out, place it in a box, and keep it in his room.
Apparently, it is my essence.
I guess I should remember to put that in my will.

I like having an hour every night to hang out before I pass out.
It allows me to see Abigail and Kristina.
And for Kristina to have her dream come true of meeting Mr. Titan.
And getting his digits.

I want a boy.
Who is not like any other boy I've been involved with in the past.
But has little things from each of them to make up my dream.
And only so I can cuddle with him every night until I fall asleep.
My teddy bear doesn't do justice.
But I like to push boys away only to try and pull them back in when they are almost gone.
And for what reason? Knowing that I want nothing but friendship.
Yeah. right.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 01:52:15 GMT

Basically I don't remember much of last night.
But I don't mind it.

I have come to the conclusion.
That lack of sleep.
working both jobs.
And eating close to nothing makes my energy level at an all time low.
Add a blunt and me driving.
I don't know how I didn't pass out.

Today was pretty much great.
I like Strawberries.
The people are awesome and I get to help people find music.
It's a good time. And $8/hour.
Brucey goose sacrificed his sleep to hang out with me.
Which was well worth.
I love how that kid cracks me up.
If it isn't his singing skills or dance moves it's just the random shit that pops out of his mouth.
We went to Amanda's and hung out for a bit with her as well.
Stupid mark.
Then he had to lie and rush me back to my automobile.
30 minutes after he was supposed to get alicia.
woops.

And now I am off to hang out with some of the coolest ladies.
And then pass out and work again.
Did I mention I'm working a good 45+ hours this week.
Which means no social life.
So if you want to hang out. You call me.

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 04:03:41 GMT

Tommorrow I start at Strawberry's.
I'm wicked nervous.
I hate first day of anythings.
and I don't want to open the front tomorrow.

I want to get away from a lot.
Basically it's more than I can say in a sentence.
So I want to get away from it all.

I wish I could be in Boston now living there and starting at Umass.
Now.
Not in 4 months.

And I want to avoid boys in general.
I have done nothing but fall for them.
Only for me to land flat on my face.
And see them walking by laughing.
Maybe not all of them.
But most of them snickered.

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 22:43:26 GMT

I'm officially sick.
Yesterday all I had was a sore throat and a hurting nose.
This morning I got ready for work and threw up nothing but stomach acid and my nose is all runny and it stinks.

I'm thinking of abandoning myspace.
Kids who get crushes on me before I know them are crazy.
Then they always go and join the army and leave me hanging.
That's a road I refuse to go down again.

Daily updates should be more interesting but eh, my brain refuses to work too much.

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 16:26:44 GMT

8-01

We like to find remote controlled cars in my closet.

And take pictures where my eyes are barely open.
8-02
Warped Tour '06

Billy Talent. See them in November!

Stretch Arm Strong

Adair

Cartel

30 Seconds To Mars

Rise Against

The best thing ever to go to Denny's afterwards.

I like to get real sunburnt.

And eat bacon.
8-09
Cynthia's Birthday

Kristina makes awesome cake.

She looks real happy to be 20.

Kristina and Katie's pimp pimp living room.

8-10

The leftovers of the night before.

Everyone loves Mario.

Kristina loves hot chocolate.

Presents.

More of the apartment.

Thumbs up.

Speeedy!

Cool lamps, sunglasses, and bubble gum?

8-11
As Tall As Lions Cd Release show at the ICC

We love the t.

Alewife.

As Tall As Lions ♥ ♥ ♥

Julio owns you.

The Dear Hunter

8-12
Party numero uno - Cynthia's partay

Diana is great.

Coffee Regular.

Smiles.

o-face?

lovvvvvvvvvve them

Boobies.

wow.

Nipple.

Almost.

Oh snap.

Tru gangstas.
8-16

8-18
Party numero dos - What the fuck was I thinking?
I have no words for any of these photos.

8-19
After 3 hours of sleep

8-31
Trip to Maine to see my ladies hdawg and franywany

Rest areas have neat things.

Word.

Portland has weird lights.

OOBBBBBBBB

Franycesca.

Me and hdawgy.

Hot surfer bois.

Me and Cyn.

Those kids from rdubbs.

9-01

Fran's house.

The ride home was long.

♥ Maine

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 17:21:04 GMT

The last time I update was almost a month ago.

A lot has been going on and I've seen a ton of my friends and I'm really happy about that.
I've seen Brucey a ton even though his girlfriend hates me. I
have to see him when she works so it's kinda like a 9 to 5 thing so I make him breakfast a lot and I've seen his mom a lot and hung out with his family and I liked it.
It's good to know that even though things end you can still have that closeness to someone who I would like to call my best friend and have their family still love you.

I went to Warped TOur and freakin' loved it. We got there late and missed only the Killing Moon. We saw Billy Talent, Stretch Armstrong, Adair, Cartel, 30STM, and Rise Against. We even had time for Denny's after. Definitely one of my favorite Warps ever.

Me and Cyn have gone to Providence a lot. We went for her birthday and Kristina had a suprise bday party which turned into a no longer suprise and me and Cynthia fighting because of it. But it was great. Kristina made awesome cake and decorated her place supah pimped out and we played a lot of Super Mario Brothers. I spent $200 at Delia's and got 2 tickets but it was great. And I finally got my computer fixed by going next door to Hooters.

My parents went to San Francisco from the 12th to the 20th. I had two parties. One for Cynthia's bday where $100 was stolen. But I had an awesome time. Then another one a week later which Sam Wheeler ended up being pulled out of bed to go to. I had basically everyone I loved except Leah at my house between these two days and I loved that. By the way, Leah, Marielle is finally back from her vaca so I expect to see you before you go back to school. Lots of alcohol was consumed and I'm still finding Smirnoff caps. Pictures of all of this to be seen soon.

I also saw As Tall As Lions with the Dear Hunter and then 2 days later I saw Portugal, TREOS, and Circa Survive. Both shows were awesome. But I don't get why the Dear Hunter headlined when it was the ATAL cd release show. And the whole time Portugal played I could only picture Wes in a diaper. And I love that at the end of their set all they said was "This is dedicated to the devil. #1." I love them.

Summer has gone by so fast. People came home and I didn't get to see them which made me kinda sad. And I don't want them to go to England but what can you do. Hopefully labor day visits will be had. I still hate my boss. And I've come to the conclusion that she should get emotions some day. If someone gives you their two weeks, I think you can figure out their last day without them having to write it. But then schedule them after that and call them incompetent because you were the fucking idiot who scheduled them then tell them to find someone to work for them. This did not happen once but threeeeee times. I need a new job because everyone is leaving because they are way smarter than me.

Other than that I've figured out parts of my life. Not in its entirety because I struggle with that. School = Umass Boston. Hopefully apartment in Dorchester. Until then. Road trips. First time skiing and campfire before summer is over? Oh yes, how could I forget. I'm finally going to MAINE! To see my favorites. Hopefully the 31st and 1st. And then camping at lost river in NH in september.

Back to my spirals mac n cheese.

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 16:29:31 GMT

7-01
Sometimes my parents go away to the Cape.

And I wake Cynthia up after she's been passed out for 2 hours.

Then I make rediculous faces.

Watch Bruce in the background.

Then Cynthia goes back to sleep.
7-03
Sometimes Bruce acts like a lil' girl and Ronnie takes pictures at his house.

Sometimes I slap Ronnie.

Corey looks cute when he holds bags.

Ryan hates photos.

Sometimes we go swimming at Fresh Pond.

Sometimes Kristina is drunk on White Horse.

Really, really drunk.

7-04

Sometimes Cynthia takes pictures of me when I wake up.
7-07

No more sometimes. I'm crazy.
7-12
MY friends are greattttttttttt.

Brucey loves my turtle, a lot.

7-14
Jim Breuer is amazing.

7-16
I like to throw bachelorette parties at my house where the fiance shows up.

7-22
I have this friend names Amanda Marie Cadigan and she got married to Mark Edelin.
It was fun.

el vestido

and boobs.

and more boobs.

Bridesmaids.

The limo. Mr. C, Amanda, and Mikey.

Maria and Tori.

Mikey

Mark's padres.

Me and Dom.

The first dance.

Ushers. Dom, Aaron, Matt, Mike.

Best man speech. I so didn't do one.

That's why they're together.

Brucey.

Ronald.

Cut the cake.

Amanda and her dad's dance. To Amanda of course.

Mark and his momma dance.

Me and Dom.

Brucey and Gma

Cyn and Aaron.

Me and my boyssss.

The hot hostess they loved.
Bruce caught the garter and Maria caught the flowers.

I love them.

Aftaaaaaaaa partay.

After 8 or 9 beers.

After these pictures. I've come to the conclusion I am 13 years old.

June

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 04:07:08 GMT

6-01

I like to find lady slippers everywhere.

Trip to Albany, NY.
6-03

The start.

It rained the whole way to my grandpa's in Pittsfield.

Photos while driving are so kewl.

But not cooler than Cyn's face.

Or the turtle and furby who occupy my dashboard 24.7

6-04

Hudson River.

Saratoga Winners is real sketchy.

Forgive Durden

El Hombre Portugal.

Gatsbys

Sunsets are the greatest.

We like to take pictures.

I like to look rediculous.

And be silly.

Halfway point.

Hudson at night.

Just a little more stuff about this.
The night we went up to my grandpa's I had to jump someone who got stuck in front of the window at Mcdonald's. In the rain. Wierdest experience ever. The night before I got 1 hour of sleep so I passed out when we got there. Went out to breakfast then off to Albany. I felt so old there. Show was great. Oh yeah Laura The whole time I was there I thought Zach was Jon. So I went up to who I thought was Jon after who turned out to be Zach and super duper nice. And we talked of old portugal (pelican) and how he wants to so go back to portugal like that. We went like 500 somehting miles and spent $60 on gas and it was awesome.

6-05

Ronnie likes to climb trees.

And talk on his cell phone.

And watch inch warms crawl on his crotch.

I like to pass out in the middle of the day.

Cyn thinks it's funny.

I still don't.
6-10

♥ Sunrises.
6-12

6-13

Sometimes I'm a bad kid.
6-19

Lady slippers. Are everywhere.
6-22
Brucey photoshoot.

"Plug me in to turn me on."

I'm so gangsta with a chain and a mini red sox bat.

Even cooler with a cigarette.

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 02:13:47 GMT

Sunday night basically went just how I thought it would be.
Everyone would show up.
Including the fiance because go figure a bachelorette party without him there.
I knew it wouldn't happen but it was still a good time.
Bruce acted crazy.
Ronnie broke stuff.
And lots of old musica was listened to.
I said mean stuff about girlfriends I don't like which I shouldn't have and Ronnie had to tend to Sam because he's like obsessed so everyone left supa early.
Oh well.
Monday I worked all day.
And at some point saw Ms. Kristina Gascoyne.
And late night trips to Dunkie's were had.
Tuesday Francine showed up to wake me up.
I talked to him about a lot of stuff.
Like the Wareham thing.
If things don't work out with Alicia we'll see what happens but other than that I'm over it.
The Monkey came back to life!
Me, Bruce, and Cyn drove around in the 90 degree weather and acted like 5 year olds while some guy changed light bulbs in my house.
Then I went into work and it was 97 degrees.
97. And a nice cool 82 ALL NIGHT inside the store.
I was nasty by the end of the night.
I ended up seeing Sammy! and I hadn't seen her in foreve.r
She told me about her hatred for Bruce and her weirded outness by ROnnie so I guess the both of them lose but she can do oh so better.
I ate Chinese food and watched the thunder.
Today was my day off and I pretty much accomplished nothing.
I woke up and cleaned around the house.
Made it to the bank and now have a whopping $700 saved.
Then went to Montapossett Inn where the wedding is in Wareham and it is so freakin' pretty.
Then I came back and went downtown for a bit and got my schedule.
Found out stuff about coworkers. Interesting.
Ate some yummy pizza and then headed to the mall with Amanda to pick out wedding gifts for the bridal party.
And I got another one of my pillows. If you know me you know my pillows will make you pass out if you lay on them and I got a new one. And so happy about it.

I still feel like I have no time to do anything. The final fitting is tomorrow for the dresses. I need to write my whole maid of honor speech. Friday is nails then dress rehearsal then dinner. Then Saturday is the day. I still can't believe Amanda is getting married. I feel so stressed. And I miss people so much! I haven't even gotten to see Sammy for her birthday and I feel like a butt. But I really have no time this week and my work schedule sucks ass and when I have days off people have to work and ugh. Time should jsut stop. Like I wish that it had months ago. A lot of crap has happened and I wish I could just forget it all and bring things back to normal. But that's life. I need a new job. One where it requires some kind of skill to do. Like a bank would be nice.

So much changes in so little time

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 05:30:17 GMT

Friday me and Cyn went and got fitted.
The dresses look a lot different than I thought.
I like it while Cynthia hates it.
It was so hot out.
We ended up totally switching cars.
Then I got a call from Bruce telling me he can't go to Amanda's. His response is that he can only go if he brings Alicia. And why because he lives with her and why because they are going out...again. I guess I didn't even get a whole day to think about moving in with him because now he is going to be living with Cottage Cheese. I'll see how long that lasts.
Me and Cyn left for Mr. Breuer.
We stopped at American Joes on the way.
Soooooooo good.
Half a rack of ribs with the best bread ever.
Then yummy pie for dessert. Cheap and yummy.
We got to the South Shore Music Circus at like 8:45.
No opening act and 10 minutes later Jim comes out and walks right by.
He was so funny.
At first he was picking on people in the crowd and I was like shit I hope he doesn't do this the whole time but of course not.
He went off about goat boy and about the cape and his family and it was really good.
I took like 3 videos and pictures.
I literally have like 200 pictures to still upload and post though so I don't know when I'll get around to it.
Today I woke up and cleaned the crap out of my house for Amanda's would be bachelorette party.
I left for work and once at work I found out that it might not even be happening.
I didn't get out of work til 11.
Which was way later than I thought.
Ronnie couldn't go.
And I called Bruce and he gave me this crap about "I'm not going to bring my girlfriend to a place she's not wanted". Well she never has been why do you think you have to notify us of her presence every time we try to hang out.
So we just visited her.
The party that Bruce and Ronnie ditched us for got canceleed. of course.
Sad excuse bruce showed up at Amanda's.
And was a total ass I must say because if you make fun of someone's girlfriend that means they can bring up all this totally unrelated shit trying to piss you off when it doens't work. Even if he laughs and makes fun of her as well. Whateva yo.
We decided tomorrow night is better for this and Ronnie said he'd be there and somehow we convinced Bruce to go.
So tomorrow I open the store and work til 4.
Hopefully getting to the bank to deposit my check in SAVINGS.
I have not saved one cent.
I have like 500 in checking but still the other like 500 is GONE.
People owe me around 300 all together. but that is still no moeny.
Then hang out time with all the oldie kids for a rescheduled bachelorette party.
Bruce and ROnnie can go only because theya re the two guys I know who are far too feminine even when they don't want to be. Well at least Bruce.

The moral of the story is:
Girls are lame. Especially when they are connected to their mans dick.